• I think that I am really okay with the past. All of the past, not just parts of it, but the whole thing. I mean, when I really think about I should never be ashamed of my past, for that is what makes me the person I am today. Of course I have my faults and my problems, but altogether I'm pretty happy with the person I am.
  
  Sometimes I, of course, don't feel so okay with myself, but for the most part I am a pretty good person. I think a lot of the time I don't feel adequete enough, but through Dar and Camden I've tried my best to realize it's nonsense.
  
  Last night Dar was over (due to Veteran's Day) and we talked of our pasts (like before we met each other) for about two hours, or seemed that way at least. It was nice too, and I wasn't like 'oh no, I was so wierd then!'  I just talked about it with a shrug, just thinking 'yeah, that was me then, and this is me now.' It was just a really nice feeling. I even opened up to Dar and told him a few things in my past that I never really tell anyone. One of them he could tell it kind of had an impact on me then and affected me throughout my childhood, and he just walked over to me and kissed me on the lips like everything was going to be alright and I knew it would be.
  
  It's just a terribly nice feeling to not only no longer live in the past, but to also feel comfortable with it. I don't honestly remember the last time I felt like this. It's such a relief.
  
  I'm writing again, another non-murder. This one will hopefully be a bit longer. I'm writing in a romanticism stlye. Camden is going to take it after I get so far along and do an alternate ending, I'm terribly excited. I don't have much written yet, but I'll get to it, I just need to get the ball rolling.
  Quote of the Day:
  ~"I have dreamed in my life, dreams that have stayed with me ever after, and changed my ideas; they have gone through and through me, like wine through water, and altered the color of my mind. "~
  --Emily Bronte
  
  I'm currently reading her book Wuthering Heights thanks to Camden. So far it's great. It's due on my mother's birthday.

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