• Well; So far I have learned that people may say that they are your friends; but you will never truely know if they mean it. Rebecca says that she is my friend; yet today I heard her saying that I was plenty of names that I would rather not say.

   "That's what you get when you see your life in someone elses eyes." that line, right there... it says so much to me; you don't know what you look like in someone elses eyes - to yourself you are just well, yourself. Yet to others you could be some freak that nobody wants to know, you don't exactly know or care about what other people think of you - that's what I thought until I heard that line of a song. It spoke to me because I never really thought of it that way before; I imagine many of you could relate to it, also... and think of a million other ways to look at those few words - but that is my way of looking at it. 

   Right now, I am trying to understand why we are born; sounds so depressing but it really bothers me; are we just here to learn a lesson, and then it be over with? Or are we here to make a difference in the world. I don't exactly know which one it is, or if there are other reasons - I just wish we didn't have to figure it all out for ourselves. We are all here for different reasons, but I wish it wasn't so hard finding out what the reason is.

  My mom isn't home, and either is my sister - I don't know where either of them are; neither do I care. I just got back from the hospital from my operation; and now I am on sleeping pills. It isn't that fun, but I guess that is the price I pay. Don't think I am suicidal, because that isn't the reason I am in the hospital; I am in the hospital due to lung cancer. Smoking is a bad habit, and they really mean that when they say it - I just wish I listened. I guess that is the main reason so many songs get to me; because I know I could leave at any moment, and yet I still think that music will help me survive. It's like old people(haha), if they are married, and one dies-  it's not that long after the other one dies; it's like they can't live without eachother. Somewhat like me and music, I need it to live; and it needs me and everyone else to stay alive, also.

   Anyways, I should really go sleep - it's only 2PM; but I most likely won't wake up until about 12AM.

   

   

  shelby.

  xoxx

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