• I can't listen to anything right now. Everything reminds me of her. All of her pores, her strands of hair, the spokes of her green eyes in the dim room light.
  I want to fix things.
  I want to fix everything.
  Most of all, I want to forget. I want to sleep.

  How did this night come to be? Well...lets go back.

  I remember going to my new school, and meeting this amazing fucking girl. Then a few weeks later, we were together. I was so happy. It was the twenty-first of August. We then split up, which you read in my earlier journals, if you've been reading at all. And so it was my birthday on the Thirtieth of October, talk about waking me up when september ends huh? Which I fucking hate Green Day btw.
  Anyways...So this weekend, she kinda just got drunk, and we kissed, and I KNEW I shouldn't have fucking tooken it as something of meaning to her. Does she even mean it though? I'm tired of her saying no one cares for her. I'm tired of standing there, RIGHT FUCKING THERE, in front of her, and feeling so dismantled, and for her to just look past me.

  And now she's dissappointed in ME? What the fuck did I do?

  No wait, that's right, I'm an idiot, and I ruin everything.
  In other news..about the step dad situation. He was kicked, he came back, and then HE LEFT to be with some other chick. Big surprise huh?

  Not really.
  He sucks at everything he's ever even said he's accomplished.

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