• nothing much special to journal about, but alot has happend in the past few days. its already saturday, last journal was wednesday i think, yes it was, feels like ages. since then nothing much but gym/immersing myself in music/youtubing/occasional ba/msn. i wish i could say i did some significant study, but procrastination hits hardest after an exam when u feel free again. friday went star city, occasion was a relative from the phils was in town, so a nice dinner at star city and tour of darling harbour and ofcourse the casino itself was pretty much friday night/saturday morning. played a bit of the big wheel, pretty fun tho no wins. craps table was so full and so was sic bo. sister still has the 18 yearold excitement feeling, and dragged me all over to the clubs and bars, ended up having a franjelico, mmm so goood. weather was nice n cool in the city late at night, wish it was like that all the time, perfect outting night time weather. with all the bright lights and noises i still couldnt get my mind off things, i guess i never can these days (and im sure it shows in this journal, so embarassing, but it feels good to write it down somewhere, then keep it playing in my head). everyday feels like the same question, with differing answers. anyways enuff abt that for now, saturday was dance practice, chris couldnt make this one, so we practiced cha cha and salsa, cha cha went ok, we all picked it up and made it look even more better. salsa was more of a recap, since only 3 couples were available, jason and nianci couldnt make it as well. overall was fun but tiring as usual. after we all pretty much relaxed and had a bit of a nap haha in the back. altho today had an interesting convo with her in the morning just before practice, something abt an alibi to get out of tuesday or something, i wasnt very sure what she meant but now for some reason she feels bad and i dont even know why, something abt using me for an alibi? i dont know what it is, but i hope she doesnt feel bad abt it, because nothing she can do would make me feel bad, i just want her to be happy no matter what, and i mean that. not just writing it up here because it sounds good, no i really want her to be happy. well from what i can recall she wants to "study" (yes thats how she put it on msn) on friday. so i atleast have that to look forward to. thats only like 6 days? i can wait that long. i realise i dont have much time left to see her this year unless we somehow grow closer, but she has so many friends i dont know why she would bother with me, im not cool, funny or smart so i have nothing goin for me. one thing came to mind which sorta surprised me, if she had found out about this i would be soooo screwed, it wouldnt be funny. just thinking of it would make it awkward. if she did she probably would think im some weirdo. gg no re. p.s. i realised this is not a quickone as said in the title, i guess its so hard to make it quick these days with so much bottled up in my head... songofthemoment none

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