• should I be happier right now? I can't seem to figure out what was wrong yesterday. On the one hand, it was lovely. we held hands a lot, he kissed the side of my head while we were on the Underground, we spent the whole day together. On the other hand. His smiles didn't seem completely honest. They didn't radiate like they usually do. He was distracted sometimes. He just didn't seem as thrilled to be 'us' as I was - or as he has been for the last few weeks. I got really worried when he rushed off to the toilet in Nando's. He'd been feeling ill again and I thought he was throwing up -- so, it makes sense that I was surprised when he said he hadn't and wanted to be double sure? I was only checking with him because I care so much, I didn't realise it was annoying. The drive home was great, though. Maintaining constant contact throughout the 2 hours we were sat there - completely innocent, bar the 'thighs' thing. We only kissed twice, soft pecks on the lips to say goodbye. I can deal with that. Maybe all the glossiness has worn off now, and this is just what's left. Comfort, and reassurance. Maybe I'm just overanalysing everything again, and all this worrying is my fault. If I think about it, there's not really anything majorly bad that happened yesterday - more good than bad. So how do I stop myself feeling like this? I want to see him again, to make sure. I don't know. idontknowidontknowidontknow. CONCENTRATE ON THE GOOD THINGS. Like the photo of us on the bridge over the Thames. And the way he teased me when I was talking to Mum&Dad by trailing his hand around me. And how, somehow, we kind of managed to have fun in the Victoria & Albert Museum. Concentrate on the good things. I need to remember that. He loves me. It isn't easy to change your mind so quickly about something as big as that.

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