• 6:30. still crying, but not hysterically as before. Am starting to unerstand there are explanations behind the things i am feeling (or not feeling). I'm not the only one with these 'episodes' in fact mine are nothing in comparison to the badly afflicted. i'm sure this would be comforting if i could muster up enough energy to care. If flo picks me up. It will give me something to look forward too. And i know that if he doesn't my mood will sink deeper. not his fault. My life (everything about my life) is dependant on the 'now' what is happening at this very moment and this very time , how i FEEL right now is the only think i can focus on for long periods. It's hard to think about the future in realistic terms, my mind wanders into unattainable fantasies as if it knows that even the simplest of pleasures i am unable to attain on my own. complete dependence. complete independence. substance dependence. substances that keep me emotionally restrained, like a muzzle on a dog. repressing thoughts and feelings that would otherwise elicit ..a mood swing. Whatever it is that is causing them

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