I had this odd dream last night. I was at my old house. Now, for the shortest backing story I can give: last year, June/July, I moved to where I live now. The place where I used to live harbours a lot of bad memories and experiences for me. At this old house though, there's this giant car park type area, which is great for bikes, scooters, skateboards, etc. So I'm at this place, with a bunch of other people - but specifically, I was with Alice from The L Word. Lara, also from The L Word, was there. Then it dawns on me: I'm Dana. I mean, I'm still me, but I'm Dana at the same time. Wtf? This dream was less about the storyline, but more about the actions. So I'm "with" Lara in the dream, but I keep on wanting to be with Alice. Alice and I kept on trying to dodge Lara and everyone so we could, uhm, "be together." I remember feeling a sense of adrenaline and sincere elation with her, too. We'd run around all these areas at my old house, laughing, trying to avoid people, like it was a game for us. I haven't experienced feelings like that in my waking life for a long time. I think that's what I'm missing. I'll be completely honest: I don't think I'm as happy as I let myself show. The other week, at my friends' birthday, I was talking to three other girls, and they were talking about their boyfriends - then I made a comment along the lines of "Hey, I just noticed, I'm the only single person here!" The response was "Awwww!" Like "Awww, you haven't got a boyfriend, poor you!" Little do they know that I don't want a boyfriend, ever.