My life...has plateau'd lately, seriously. I mean, a lot of really little good things happen, but then bad things offset them. Thus the plateau. I worry that I'm becoming less easily happy, which is a bad thing. But...idk. I'm really tired and kind of sick, and I have finals. I'm hoping that once that's all over life will be better. But seriously? My one friend is supremely pissing me off. It's weird, because she has a ton of friends, but they're all fake scene whores and stuff. Her only two "close" friends at school are me and my other friend. But she treats us both like shit, especially me. She literally makes fun of me...for being a virgin. It's bizarre. Maybe I'm only friends with her for her drama. I mean, she sleeps around quite a bit and gets a new boyfriend every week and does a lot of crazy shit that I'd never do. I love her as a person who is smart, talented, and interesting, but she treats those who value her the most like shit, just because we're not as morally bankrupt as her other friends. And I know the shit is going to hit the fan - she's my only friend that I am so up and down with. I wish that we had a more stable relationship, but I don't know how to get it to be that way, because I really don't trust her. I realized lately that I don't actually TRUST most of my friends. My two best friends, yes. (F from a former entry, and the new one I will call E) I tell them everything. My other really close friend, R, I am very comfortable talking to as well, but there are some things I feel are taboo with her. One of my best guy friends, L, I trust a lot and tell a lot of stuff too, but not as near as much as my girl friends. But I'm taking everything with a grain of salt. I have too much on my mind to take on another friend feud. I'm just going to let it kind of fizzle out. If she thinks the frienship is worth it, I'll let her let me know. I made M a mix tape because he made me one. It was songs that remind him of me, and it was actually really cute. He like, wrote down the reasons why each song reminded him of me, hahah. So I did the same for him. Here it is: 1. Just the Girl - The Click Five 2. What's Yo Myspace? - T-Pain 3. MMMBop - Hanson 4. The Owls Go - Architecture in Helsinki 5. Let's Make Out - Does It Offend You, Yeah? 6. Take Me to the Riot - Stars 7. Dirty Pop - *NSYNC 8. Radar - Britney Spears 9. Why Don't We Do it in the Road? - The Beatles 10. You Make Me Gay - Gravy Train!!!! 11. Let's Make My Bed - Applied Communications 12. Fucking On the Dancefloor - Dirty Sanchez 13. Sex in the Kitchen - R. Kelly 14. The Man Who Sold the World - David Bowie 15. Music is My Hot Hot Sex - CSS 16. Temptation Greets You Like A Naughty Friend - Arctic Monkeys 17. Beating Hearts Baby - Head Automatica 18. No More Eatin' (Plan B Mix) - Hadouken! 19. Human - The Killers 20. Tipsy - J-Kwon 21. Je Veux Te Voir - Yelle So, yeah. Hahah. :] I realized many of the songs are sexual/cheesy/horrible pop/techno, but it's kind of a joke. I mean, it's not like that mix CD is an accurate description of my musical taste. Hahah. But whateverrr.