update on the last journal: the heart melter didn't go to the party and he now has a girlfriend. lol. but that's cool cos i don't know him. he's just beautiful. but i thought it was going to well with this guy who i think i've fallen for. and everything was so perfect. then his ex told him she's still in love with him. and i got dropped like a stone. it hurts. we're never gonna be such close friends again. it hurts so much. 'this is the one.. you've been waiting for.' song of today: the colorful quiet - the one