• Written eaerlier today: I came to the realization today that this is the point in my life when childhood is completly gone. I'm sitting in Study Hall as I write this in my agenda, and it seemed to have suddenly hit me. I've always felt older that my age group, and took pride in being more mature. Yet, at the same time I clung to my past as if it were the only thing I had. I've finally let go of the past, and I mean it when I say it. I began to realize it last night as I talked to Dar on the phone. However, I think what pushed me to the realization is all this talk of the festival. You see, they got rid of the tallest, fastest ride (the only one most kids my age ride) and everyone is rather pissed about it. As they spoke in angry voices of the news, I thought of the ride. I thought of when I rode it, and I realized I'm past that. And not because I'm too cool for it or anything, but just because it seems kind of silly. As they spoke I realized the fair itself was no longer important to me. I'm looking towards the future a lot, but not in that longing way that I used to. Now, I'm preparing in a positive way for it. I'm trying in my classes for once, and I'm doing extremely well. I know a lot of things will change before I reach adulthood, but I'm ready. I feel in these past few months I have grown so much, and I know I still have plenty of room to grow and improve. I know I will always be growing and improving, but I'm happy with who I am, and I am in life. I no longer want to cling to my past as a security blanket. I'm happy now. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- I wrote a story yesterday afternoon. It was the first story I've completed in months (not counting ones for school). Not only that, but it was the first non-murder/death story I've ever completed. Also, I found a good amount of new music, check out Astrophel and Stella if you have time. They're ace. They kind of sound like Brand New to me. Quote of the Day: ~"The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing."~ --Walt Disney I need to do my Chem. gr.

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