• I haven't written in here for a while, for good reason. I'm so over it! And i don't feel like it's something i should be doing, i'm not sure why. However, right now i really feel like blogging, and my other one is screwing up so this is what's left. Things were looking up for a while, and still are, i've just had a bit of a backwards day. You know, one of those days when you just forget how good everything has gotten and go back to the your old ways of constant self-sympathy, apathy and lack of empathy. I kept trying to make it better, but sometimes your so tired you can't force yourself to look up or even open your eyes. But it's ok. One night's sleep will make it all better. It's just i've been flooded with schoolwork, and i thought i'd been through this a million times, but never like this. I worked for four days straight, with no spare time. I'm sure people have had it worse, but for me it was so mentally and emotionally draining! I really should be taking a while off the computer, but here i am again. Worst part is i still haven't finished. Two more weeks, before it starts all over again. But sometimes a new beginning is what you need. I spent today bitching and crying and laughing and stopping all of a sudden. Sometimes i just can't control myself. But i'm learning. The only reason i get mad at people is when i care about them. That doesn't exactly make me a good person, but at least i'm not mean without reason? I guess it's because i give them some kind of power over me. I let them effect my well-being. And i hate when they shut off. I just wish i knew what was wrong, so i could fix it. Then again, do i? In some ways i would rather remain oblivious and innocent. My body is withering away. Does that sound old? Another word for withering... less wrinkly and more .... more... i don't know. I have no time to take care of myself. And i can't fit into my jeans anymore... not a good feeling! Anyway i think i've got it all out, it's just been one of those days (yes, THOSE days). Maybe i'm due. Maybe i've overdone it. All i know is tomorrow will be better =]. Some kind of a breakthrough is on it's way... or even in process right now. So right now i'm loving sex on fire by kings of leon, i usually don't like them, but that song is so damn catchy! WOOOAHHH your sex is on fire! and electric feel is also pretty sweet =]. It's so not the kind of music i'd usually like, but it's grown on me. Also fabulous right now are Lovers Electric! There's electricity in the air, we try to catch it but nothing's there. Tell me honey can we ever find the truth? Will we ever see one view? I owe the whole world an apology, does forgiving yourself mean your forgiven? Cyberbullying is a no-no! I think it's time for a change.

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