• I miss arkansas, but I know already that next summer won't be the same. There's been a lot of things that have happened since I left. And it seems just about everyone but Gur has fallen. Fro is now dating Amy..which is bad, because Amy was dating Dougie and Fro didn't even wait a week to start dating her. Which is a major no-no. It's BS, Dougie is a great guy, and doesn't deserve that at all. Fro's done this to several other people too. (stealing girlfriends) Then there's Rus and Lil. Rus is crazy in love with Lil, and Lil doesn't love him back. Everyone thinks he just wants in her pants, but he came out and told Lil he loved her. Then bought her a pair of real nice shoes with money he doesn't have and told her to lie to the House and say her mom got them for her. TJ and my sister have had a fall out because of my sister's new boyfriend. TJ feels abandoned, but Tas can't help it really. Her new boyfriend is like her drinkin' buddy, and TJ isn't much of a drinker. Plus, so much drama is happening Tas is just trying to stay to the side lines, and TJ doesn't understand. Plus, I'm about 85% TJ loves my sister more than she could ever know, but don't tell her that. :x Now, the electricity has been shut off at the House, and everyone has had to fend for themselves elsewhere. I knew it would happen, I just didn't want to think about it. My sister already said she doubts we'll spend as much time there as we did. Which honestly...is okay with me.. Fro's real colors came out, and he to me is a just another asshole Virgo. Rus, as much as I love the guy, will be impossible to look at the same. Lil, I never connected that much with anyway. TJ, my swimming buddy, will visit me I know. So really, I just want to see Gur, cause he's simple and wonderful. Of course I'll miss the House...but I'm embracing changes in my life, and this is just another one. I have my memories there, and even if I did go back and everything was peachy, it will still be different. Only in a much worse sort of way..it would be an awkward thick-aired way, where I no longer know what to do, cause I know whats gone on. I'll see them all again someday, just not the way it was. Plus, I think I'm okay with changes, and I'm okay with not going back. I don't have the need to run in the past. I'm happy with where my life is. I'm comfortable, I know who I am and where I stand, and most importantly; I'm happy. I'm actually very happy with where my life is right this moment. I just cut my hair the way I've longed for, I go to shows every weekend, I get my school work done, I have a wonderful beau, and just the overall feel of my life is good. Next summer I won't be there as long anyway. My mom will be going along. I hope she doesn't impose on Tas and I. Also, I've been thinking about drugs. I promised Dar I wouldn't do any, and I also promised Kins... Kins is back in my life again. It's nice. It's nice to have his advice and company again, but I don't feel like I need it. It's a comfortable sort of friendship. I added him, and we've talked a few times since. It's nice really, he's happy, I'm happy, we share our moments and advice, it's wonderful. I doubt anyone even remembers him..or has read my journal that long =P oh well. Quote of the Day: ~“Memory is the diary that we all carry about with us”~ --Oscar Wilde

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