• i remember why i hate feeling now. it's too inconsistant. emotion is unstable. always subjected to outside environments. never controlled, never maintained, always in excess. no one care's how you feel. no one care's that youre vulnerable. no one fucking care how this all affects you. im not addicted to drugs, im addicted to being numb. and everyone thinks i'm sick, i'm so sick. but the bad things you do. You do from the own purity of your inner being. No external force is inhibiting your judgement. It's just you. Atleast my sickness is tangible. Youre cruel because thats just who you are. Atleast I can say, "i was fucked when i did..." you can't youre doing this from an influence all your own. youre worse off then i am. its not okay. its never okay. its never going to be okay. im not okay. im drowing in my blood. im drowning in the blood of my Saviour. MARANATHA. my desperate pleas are all too sad and frightening to type out. i've got to get out of here.

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