at last!!!!! YAY! i can finally use my computer! (i didnt have ne internet there). trip was pretty much a giant yawn. i hate not being able to choose my own religion. i mean for _christs sake_ IM 15 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!! i think that justifies me as being old enough to make up my own mind about religion. i mean, i know that there mite be sum1 "up there^" but as far as im concerned, we dont know who it is. therefore, we can not base a religion off of him and his "son". i mean for _gods sake_ how can a non-existant figure have a son! from a virgin none the less!?. anyhow, im supposed to be getting confirmed in january, which, in the catholic church means, i am an adult. AN ADULT! and arent adults supposed to make their own decisions?! YES! but no fucking "adult" is going to listen to that. so instead, i have to do about 20 hours of "prep" work with my sponsor to "prepare" for this. (im gonna ask my friend who was confirmed last year if she still has her work). i meant, _jesus christ_, i have to write about how, when, and where i like to pray! i dont pray. i never have, i never will. i have found that praying doesnt do shit for anybody. if it did, then why the divorce? why the cancer (twice), why the thyroid cancer? why the skin cancer? (all from my family) i mean for petes sake if there was a "god" why would he put people and their families through sooooo much hell and torture!?!?!??!?!. thts my rant enjoy