• Well, I found out that I at least got credit for my logic class. So, that's a huge relief. Nothing is worse than failing a class that you pay for and then having to repeat it; thus shelling out more money for said class that you already took. Paying for school sucks balls. I did well in my other classes, but my GPA is still below 3.0...something that I have never experienced. EVER. ~ And...I weighed myself a few days ago...101 pounds. Not good. I don't intentionally try to weigh practically nothing. I look at myself and am unhappy with my body. I feel like I don't look like I weigh so little. But I don't starve myself. At school, I mainly lived off of ramen, because I didn't like eating in the dining halls. But since I've been back home, I've been eating fairly regularly. All junk except for what Mom makes for dinner, which isn't that healthy either...but better. The result? Today I passed out. Mom was talking to me; I had just gotten up and was gonna go on the treadmill - something I do everyday as soon as I get up - and all of a sudden I felt really nauseous. I was this close to running to the bathroom to hurl and the next thing I know I am lying on the floor. I ended up throwing up a little bile. But as soon as I regained consciousness, I stood up and shrugged at Mom. No big deal. I didn't feel bad or anything. She thought maybe I was faking to make her stop talking; that I was bored with her and messing around. She's already told my brother and sister-in-law and she made a doctor's appointment to check me out. When my other brother (who lives with us) found out he kept making fun of me and laughing about it. I thought it was funny. *shrugs* But now Mom keeps making comments about me losing weight and "wasting away". She weighed me and it had gone up to 102.5...she comments on me going from 110 to 102.5 (I don't remember when I weighed myself to find out I weighed 110), but not about the fact that 102 for anybody my age is unhealthy and pretty unnatural. [...You Should Probably Just Shoot Me In The Head Now...] In my junior year of high school. I passed out at school. Because I didn't eat breakfast and I would go all day without really eating anything, sometimes nothing at all. Not until I get home. Then I would use the treadmill before eating anything. But that's because I didn't want cramps. It's not good to work out after just eating something, and I didn't feel like waiting. ...do I have a problem? There's still the spot on the carpet where I threw up.

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