why? thats what i keep asking myself. thats what i keep wanting to ask you. you'll just say that i brought it upon myself. that it was all my fault. well, what would happen, if i video taped you and you saw who everyone else saw? then what? would you take back every hurtful thing you have ever said to me? would you apologizing for crushing my hopes and dreams? would you apologize for making me feel the way i do? the answer is probably know. you'd just get worse. but it couldn't hurt to ask, could it?