how come everytime i walk into my moms house, i get a head ache? and everytime i leave, i feel better. i cant stand being near her. i get all itchy and antsy and i feel like i cant get away soon enough when she tries to hug me. what is this? is this normal? well, my answer to the second question is that i dont _think_ its normal. maybe im wrong. who knows. but all i know, is that i cant wait enough to be at my dads house away from her. the problem is that, if she knew this, it would break her heart. what would she do if i told her how much i wanted to move out? i dont even have to go to my dads house. I just cant be here anymore. every other word out of her mouth says "im so disappointed in you" or "you cant u be like ur sister. she doesnt do anything wrong". who puts that kind of pressure onto their child. i never did anything to her. she doesnt know how much she hurts me and bothers me. and if she did, nothing would change. i've tried to tell her, she gets defensive, starts crying, i stop for fear of hitting her over the head with a lamp or other heavy, solid object... what would she do if she knew??? Cause I'm overcommitting myself I guess this is growing up I'm sleeping so little these days I guess this is growing up I'm feeling things are about to change I'm guessing this is growing up Yeah, I'm growing up And my mom hates my guts She has every reason to From all the things I do And it breaks me just to know That I have torn her apart so many times So many times