• i haven't written in a while...i don't know why. i guess i've sort of been busy, but not really. whatever. i'm writing now, aren't i? saturday was absolutely wonderful. i went to a bar mitzvah, and had way more fun than i thought i would. not many of my friends went, but it was still great. i was kinda flirting with one of my best guy friends the whole time. i think he might like me, cause he was definitely flirting back, and he talks to me a lot at school. he's more than just a friend... but i'm not sure is i really like him like that. michael is pretty much my closest guy friend, and i don't want to ruin that. i'm just going to have to see where it goes with him. at the party, there was this other kid, joe. he was hot. but he didn't talk. he was nice to look at, though. i kinda flirted with this other kid, spencer, too. there weren't to many girls, and a lot of boys. fun. we mostly played games, all of which were stupid, but fun. the last three days have been extremely hot. 90 degrees and up. not very fun. i went swimming saturday and sunday though, which was nice. tomorrow, we get our yearbooks. i cannot wait. yearbooks are so much fun for me. i have three projects going on currently, and grades close next monday or tuesday. fun. plus, i haven't even started one. it's a group project, but we basically can only do it this week. i'm really pissed at this one girl right now. we have this thing, treasure island day, and we get to pick a group with anyone we want on our team. my group was perfect, just the right size with no one too annoying. then, today, a girl that no one in my group wants to hang out with all day long, and who has a broken leg, added herself to our group. i was so pissed. and we can't even take her out. a few other people and i are going to try to get her out, but we're probably aren't going to be able to. it's going to ruin the whole fucking day. it's a day to have fun and hang out with people you like, get treasure, and just fool around. we don't have to go to class all day. and now we have to spend it with her. i could not be more pissed at her. i think i'm over j.c. i don't go crazy just thinking about him anymore. we were in the computer lab today in class, and he didn't say a word to me. i sat right near him, and he didn't say a thing. last time it was like that, it was different. he talked to me, joked, and tried to impress me. the thing is, i didn't even care that he didn't talk to me. i just talked to liv, did the work, and didn't care. it felt good. anything he does doesn't seem to affect me anymore. it makes me happy that i can let all that shitty stuff go and stop obsessing over a boy who is obviously an asshole. i really don't know what i saw in him anymore. ------------------------------ i just went through my old entries, and i can see i've changed a lot. i was so obsessive over that one little thing, and i couldn't get past is. now that i have, i feel good. i got a 96 on a recent math test, and a 95 on an open response. i'm pretty sure i aced the final, which should save my grade. plus the project. i can stop worrying about that now, at least. there's this one thing that bothers me. i got a 100 on a recent vocabulary test in english, that i didn't even study for. i looked at the words maybe once or twice. i barely even knew the words too. i wonder how it's possible for that to happen. some people who study way more than i do for tests and quizzes get low grades, when i don't study and i ace whatever it is. i feel horrible when that happens. i know i'm smart, but that shouldn't happen. i think i'm going to go read. i'm reading the perks of being a wallflower, and it's really good.

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