• Gooooiiiinnng Annnyyyywwherrrrrre!! Last night, S. and I were both in the dorm room. I read while she worked on her paper. She craved a milkshake so we decided to hop on a bus at midnight to go downtown. But, Bham is too sleepy for late night escapades - everything that might've served us a milkshake was CLOSED. Only the bars and clubs were open (the very few that we have). We ended up standing on a streetcorner for 15 minutes watching the people leave the bars in their nightlife best as we waited for the bus. Then we rode around town hunting down our saccharine booty. (XD That sounds so dirrrrrty) Turns out Wendy's is open late, but only the drive-thru. Luckily, Haggen's is open 24 hours, so we each got one a pint of Ben & Jerry's. YUM!! We ran into some of S.'s HILARIOUS friends and we hitched a ride in their tiny run-down 80's Honda, with S. sitting in the trunk. Which she enjoyed immensely. Last night was so fun! And that...upsets me. I'm so STARVED for companionship and fun. I hardly leave my dorm except for class and to study in the library. I would kill for the chance to do these types of things more often. It's like Mom always tells me: "with all the people that go to your school, you'd think you'd meet SOMEONE." Thanks mom, that does wonders for my self-esteem, my self-woth. God. I hope next year is better. I need to try harder, stop being so damn self-conscious and afraid. Just smile and inroduce myself and start talking. I don't feel depressed or suicidal. But who knows? The longer I stay like this, maybe the more likely I am to developed such frightening thoughts.

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