• Everyones always yelling in our house i don't know why, i can't stop it I'm powerless and it swallows me whole I try not to let it hurt, but it does it feels like pinpricks, only bleeding when i squeeze only when i step back and let it I do what they ask for, but its never enough i fold their laundry i get the grades but no no no no no i do it wrong i have to do it on their terms as well i don't think they can understand that im not like i used to be that so much has changed between now and when i was in middle school things that if i told them, my mom would probably cry and my dad wouldn't even be able to look at me again i bet that would stop them from caring about when i do my homework oh the irony is killing me "We could escape and skate away from all of this, but no one ever does" sometimes the easist things take the most strength to face up to If i play by their rules, i lose myself i don't want to be a shadow again i love my music, my writing, these lyrics its the first time in forever i remembered i am, capable of caring about SOMETHING. Can they really not see how a big a deal that is for me? It hurts so much, how lost and empty i feel these choices...they're drowning me i am my own worst enemy I'm damned either way theres no winning this game i guess i should be glad its only two more years, but im scared what if, when i finally get to leave this shit hole town, i can't remember how to breathe? What if im stuck in this rut of pleasing everyone else forever and ever? I don't know i dont know its too much to think about these words are starting to turn on me again i think i better stop before i start to scream someone save me? serenity

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