is almost here. just 10 more days of school left. and the last week consists of finals, Six flags, and well the last day. Maybe, hopefully, things will get better this summer. I can only hope that I am not around enough to listen to all the shit my mother feels the need to tell me 400000000 times a day. so lets see. what are my plans Last week: Monday-Thursday: finals Thursday: Six Flags Friday: Last day of school =D Week after ^^^: New York City with the girlies Tays 4th of july party Bible camp (only volunteering) Lindseys 16th bday party Warped tour =D New Hampshire with Tay Vermont with Linds Hopefully ^^^ will keep me away from her. but who knows. [[The time has come There’s nothing left to lose I’ve used up all my options I’ve used up all my chances All that’s left are wishes And we all know that wishes never come true We’ve all wished for happy endings For things they way they used to be We’ve all wished that we never happened But the truth is that we can’t change the past We wish we could We wish it would get better But we all know it won’t So what’s the point in wishing? If wishes never come true]] ^^ just part of a poem i wrote. Im just so confused right now. One minute shes all conerned b/c i've been going to bed like abnormally early, and then the next minute shes telling me what a bitch i am and how every thing is always my fault. I just dont get it. I really need to know what im supposed to do. I think part of the reason I've been getting rly bad head aches and felt like shit is b/c of her. I rly do. Right now im at my dads house and i dont have a head ache. but while i was at my moms all week, i had one. It just doesnt make sense. She says im the reason for her suffering, but is she the reason for mine? “Who have I become?” I know in my heart That the days won’t be like they used to be That I will never see the same person in myself again I wish I could go back But I know I can’t And I have to live with the pain I have to look at what I’ve become everyday And I hate what I see It’s someone I never wanted to be And yet that’s who I’ve become pCe out cub scout