• For today, I urge you to download Ludo's album 'Broken Bride'. It's only 5 songs, and it's really, really worth it. Listen to it in order too. First 'Part I: Broken Bride' then 'Save Our City' then parts 2, 3 and 4. So it's been a while. I haven't had much to say. I could have easily signed on and chattered on about how happy I've been. But what fun would that be? You're all here to see some blood. Besides; "art never comes from happiness," But anyway. I'm feeling... replaced and forgotten. Like I'm fading into the woodwork. It's a familiar feeling. It's what I've been feeling my whole life. That's eating at me, as well as everything I've bitched about in the other entries on here. It's like I took a week long vacation from myself. And to catch up, everything came rushing back at me in warp speed and hit me square in the chest. It's leaving one hell of a bruise. I just need someone to hold me and tell me I matter. What's the point of all this self confidence if it turns out that I'm wrong? Fourteen more days. And there's far too much on my plate. I'm living completely in my head now. I can't even find the line between my imagination and reality anymore. Scenario after scenario plays out in my head, and it all feels so real. I'm holding grudges with people that I really only fought with in my mind. I'm smiling at the boys that only fell for me in my dreams. The line between wake and sleep blurs a lot more often than what's healthy. I ignore my problems. When my problem happens to be my best friend, I ignore her too. What am I even doing?

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