• I thought of having an account here in SongMeanings so that I could have this journal thing. So congratulations to me, this is my first journal entry. This summer, I have uncovered a secret that will never leave me even if it will be fixed. It will just stay with me until I die. Unless I talk to someone about it and just let it out of my system just for awhile but I can't. The secret that I uncovered will ruin me and not only me but also my whole family. The day I knew everything about it, I didn't know what to do. Of course, you should expect that I will tell you that I was in tears for a long time and until now, when I think about it, I just want to cry until I sleep or I forget about it just for a moment. It's hard to say but it's still bugging me until now. What can I do? Keep my mouth shut for now. That's the safest way to do it. It's just because I care about my family so much and I would do anything to save it. Maybe because this is the one that I asked God to give me. The Sacrifice. I never thought it would be this one. I know all about this a long time ago and it's still coming back and it never stopped. I just hope I should've done something back then. But what do I know? Im just a kid at that time and who knew that I know what was happening. The reason why I asked for a sacrifice is because I want him to feel light and I just asked God to give me something that would make him feel better. So he answered my prayer. He gave me that sacrifice and I never thought that I would still be suffering until now. I hope he feels real better this time. Now that I know everything about his lies. I changed around him. Before, I was so caring to him, so sweet. Now, I'm cold as ice to him. Those hugs and kisses that I gave him after knowing everything meant NOTHING TO ME. This hate that I feel towards him will never be cured. It never will. Xo Totsmybody

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