• Random much? That's why you love me:D i have two assignments to do in the next day and a half. And I'm starting to freak out. I've been doing this one part of food tech for almost 4 hours. But it's taking so long. I've almost given up. Mum volunteered me and my sister to look after her work friend's kids. She says it's not babysitting, they just need someone older around. But having three other kids in the house when i'm trying to do homework like crazy is distracting. I kind of just want my parents to hurry up and leave so we can have the house to ourselves. But then again we'll be left alone with the kids. Oh well i guess we can just stick disney channel on. I think i got in a fight with my friend (lets call her jam donut, cuz i'm in a random mood) yesterday. I don't know if it's classified as a fight... But she took her shoes off, and i hid one of them, and then she got REALY mad even though all i did was hide her shoe... Aparently she was having a bad day, but she's been having a bad day EVERY SINGLE FREAKING DAY lately. I'm over her trying to make everyone feel sorry for her. I don't know whether she's still mad or not, it was at the end of school, and i haven't talked to her since. We were on the bus together but our other friend (A-Team) was feeling reallllly sick so we didn't talk at all. Actually Jam donut tried talking to her but i could tell A-team was just like SHUT UP i'm gonna puke. I was considering saying sorry, but i didn't really have the opportunity. Plus it's not my fault she reacted that way, if some guy had said something flirty to her that day her reaction would have been completely different. I do still like her and respect her, but there are so many things which have been pissing me off lately. Mostly she thinks she's king shit. She always makes comments which say she's better than everyone else and looks down on people irrationally, which would include me. She emotionally blackmails and abuses guys, and then lets them abuse her. She has very few healthy relationships, but she thinks each guy that talks to her just makes her that much better. She thinks she's the best goddam dancer in the world. And she's not. Yeah she's good, but i don't even really think she's the best in the school. And everytime she has a fight with a friend she bitches about them 24/7 to everyone. Which is why i'm kind of on defence mode, cuz i suspect that's what she's doing. She's done it with so many of her other friends, one which she claims as her best friend (Milo), one which she used to (Top), and she blames it all top, when all she did was rely on jam donut (ha this is amusing). And she's done it with other people too. Then she goes and acts nice to their face while behind their backs she's complaining about how they always think they're right and they always lie and are soooo insecure. It's funny cuz she does all those things herself. So what does she have on me? I'm insecure. I have no friends. I have terrible fashion taste, like OMG. I can't dance. I think i'm soooooo good. I am a terrible friend. Well yeh it's all pretty much true, except that i don't think i'm that great, i worry i come across that way. Anyway thats pretty much my bitch rant on that topic, although i might come up with something else. Thing is i don't know how to deal with this situation. I want to do the right thing. But maybe i don't want to be friends with someone who often only talks to you when she has something to brag about. But then again other than that she's a good person, and i like being friends with her. Maybe i should just say sorry, or pretend like it never happened. But in some ways i want to get into an argument so that i can tell her what i really think. Do i have the right to? I won't anyway. I'll just wait till Monday and then act like nothing happened.

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