• Stick To Your Guns, oh how I love you. That's my reccomendation for today. Listen to them. Anyway. Clearly, I have my dramatic ups and downs. Today, I'm up. Lately, when I'm not having a bad day, I'm more confident. I'm secure. It's nice. I hate when this happens. I came here with a entire day's worth of things I needed to get off my chest and now I have nothing. Well, I have one thing. My ex. He's different now. Well, he's just surprising us all. Curveball, majorly. He's with this girl now. She's so completely not his type. He's keeping her secret to majority of his friends. Apparently, they fucked all weekend. They just met. SO not like him, let me tell you. He went from me to this girl Taylor to the new girl. Cara, I think. I just can't wrap my head around it though! Taylor and I are nice girls. Respectable. Yadda yadda. Cara is ...not. She's um... okay she's a slut. I'm sorry. I didn't want to say it, but I couldn't put it any differently. I sound awful right now, I know. But if you knew him, or better yet if you knew HER, you'd see what I meant. It's wierd! Not to mention, he's back to what he normally does when he moves on from me. [We have the most unhealthy relationship ever in the history of relationships. We dated, loved each other, then I hated him, broke his heart, he hated me but still loved me, but found someone new, I fell for him again, painfully told him, he broke up with his girlfriend (NOT BECAUSE OF ME THOUGH, I SWEAR) and we tried "us" again, ended up hating each other, didn't speak for weeks, finally became friends again, he started to like me again, then we randomly stopped talking, even more randomly started again, and now we're here. And all this happened between September and now.] So he's being an immature brat. He goes through my MySpace and Facebook pictures and leaves obnoxious insulting comments like a little child. "Wow Court, nice face... cough." "This is just disturbing." Etc. I don't know. It's hard to make it sound anything less than pathetic and petty on here. But it's odd, and I'm so not looking forward to having yet another one of his new girlfriends rubbed in my face. He doesn't realize that it doesn't make me jealous. I'm happy he's moving on. I almost feel bad for the girl that he parades around in front of me. Like she's just for show. Whatever. I'm not dwelling on him. I'm not letting him get under my skin anymore. I'll let him lead his own life, whatever that may mean. I'm really upset I can't remember what I had to say! I feel like I had so much to get out! Ah, well. I'm tired. And really at ease. So I'm not gunna dig through my brain for things to rant about. I'm enjoying my peace of mind (: Oh, another reccomendation - Okay 2 of them. More Bayside. Download - Megan (Acoustic) Landing Feet First ^ I think I've mentioned them before. But they just came on one after the other on my shuffle and I really, really love them. So I figured I'd add it in. And I know I've said this, but really. If you want to talk about something in my journal, about music, about me, about you, about ANYTHING; talk to me. IM me, Email me, what have you. xbeatLOVEdown@aim.com That about wraps it up. G'night

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