• Im just going to fill you in on the nitty gritty. i wont mention the name of my band because these are journal entries not a marketing strategy. We are a 4 Piece, i sing and play guitar, Jamma is rythem guitarist, Bill is the bassist, and jimmie is the drummer. Jimmie is my brother, weve been playing together for as long as i can remember. We started off jammin with metallica songs and some nu-metal seeing as that was cool at the time. after a couple of years our taste started to become alot heavier with cradle of filth, deicide (although we never really got into them that much it was cool trying to be as fast as them) and such. When i was thirteen i was writing songs. none of them were that decent but at the time i thouth they were the shit!! lol. i remember the lyrics for one called trapped, the chorus was terrible, something like. "im so tired of people so tired of people inside, please get away i feel like im in a trap" id like to know what my parents were thinking when they heard that :). when i was about fifteen me and my brother formed our first band we were rock with twist. i was always into making music a bit different, we were named QC and we had mild success for a small time band. we entered a battle of the bands and won, just about every award. I remember it was in the weekly newspaper,second page saying "QC scoups pool at battle of the bands" it was a triumphant moment in our history. that band finished around and it woudnt be long until a new band was formed. we still were with the rock thing, mostly because it was easier and metal seemed like a big step at that time. (although we all were heavily into metal!!!) the new band consisted of the bassist from QC and a friend that we had at the time which is jamma, me and my bro. We were plotting along doing small shows with small crowds (we still do small shows with small crowds) but that ws enough for us at the time. in about 2004(late) our bassist left and we had to find a new one, and we did pretty quickly (Bill) we didnt wast any time we got straight into it doing our rock thing. In early 2005 (i think) we (myself, Jimmie, Jamma, and Bill) were to undergo a change in sound. we were all influenced by the one killswitch engage, and the metal core scene was thriving. i remember we were at another battle of the bands at a neighbouring town Whyalla, and we say this band this drowning misery, they were great, blasts, distortion shrieking screaming, and from that day i decided that i finally had the balls to stand up on a stage and do that. (i felt prettty embarrassed to scream as it wasnt very flattering) so from 2005 onwards we were officially a metal band, no more rock for us. happy times. we were still doing small gigs with no pay, we were doing evrything from the little money we had. also around 2006 alcohol started to make its prescence known, aswell as tobaccco and weed. i remember i would go out every week end and get absolutely smashed. buy a carton a pack of ciggies and go to parties and get free weed. I was (still am but not so self destructive) a big drinker. you know those dudes at parties that are just smashed, theyre funny cunts but annoying at the same time. that was me. occasionally i would have way too much and start to be an absolut cunt. anyway, each time i would hear of a new band i would listen to them and think, this shit has been done before many times over. Thats when my hunger to be something different began. I would always experiment with different things, but i didnt want the band to be so different that it would remain in our world and no where else. Its funny ever since i was in school i was telling myself that i would be in a band and i would make it, i would be a superstar. i wouldnt need to work a job that i hated i would just be doing what i love, playing guitar and making music. i think that may be why im a little dillusional now!! (or i could just have a dream) I think Late 2005 I broke up with my long time girlfriend, she was sweet but she was no longer happy with me, I was a wreck ( i was only 17) o loved her like nothing else. we were together for just about two years. It was then that i started to feel self concious. not long after that i gained another girlfriend and we were happy it was fun, but i still developed a lot of feelings for her. around the same time our first bassist left was the end of school for me i graduated and around that time my lady friend would leave. all of my friends left, and i was left with my band. I started to feel deppressed. i started to become reclusive. and i started my addictions. ill leave it there for now coz that is ashit load of info right there. please dont comment if your going to tell me how much i suck! coz its useless. only comment if you have a question or you have something nice to say thanks people

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