i tried it again, i must be doing it wrong b/c its not working i just want her to realize all this pain shes causing me. i want her to understand that shes not the only one who has had to deal with 2 cancers, a divorce, and a broken foot. i lived thru it with her. she doesnt realize that it affected me too. i wish she did. maybe, just maybe, she wud realize that i've been thru hell and back and she just makes me want to stay there