Can't sleep. Too much going on in my mind. Don't normally put shit like this in here but I'm not telling anyone else about it to save the whole comforting "there's no problem" "you're overreacting" speel. I really annoyed someone tonight. Someone who I care about - one of the most genuine people I've ever met. Lately we've been talking a lot, and tonight I just... pushed them over the line? I'm not sure. If I think a person is a nice person, I don't say "You're a nice person, I like you." There's no way I give them a positive notion. I'm one of those "push you down in the playground because I like you" types; if I care about someone, I normally insult them, because I feel comfortable enough around them to do that. It's a compliment disguised as an insult. And trust me, I do it a loooot, to the point where I would be seen as irritating. It wasn't even anything big. They were frustrated about something else, and just snapped at me. We apologised to one another, all good yeah? No, that's not how I work. I get concious of things like that; if someone snaps at me, even if it has nothing to do with me, I always think that I'm an easy target because I get so annoying. I know that I'm an annoying person. But it's just who I am. People generally accept that. There's just that odd occasion where I question how I'm acting around someone. This is one of them. Now I'm not going to be acting normally. I'll be watching every word I say, making sure I don't say anything out of line - or anything at all. I think I'll go for the subtle avoiding route this time, even though I really don't want to have to do that. Wish me luck for tomorrow though, I might have to see them again. :\ Awkward.