• so. my last days of school are incredibly pointless. i sleep in, go into g.i., then go to health block. let me make a check list: (1) speech for health block. make poster. make notecards. (2) advanced bio presentation. work on tomorrow. it's for wednesday (3) upfront magazine quiz (4)college lit essay. Please start that. (5) communications resumes. ahhh. please start that. i have five things left to do. and five things that i could easily finish tonight. but i'm way too lazy. so i'll start them tomorrow. sound like a plan? oh, yeah it does. and keep my room clean. and do the dishes. and maybe exercise a bit. something, anything to keep me from sleeping. i keep sleeping. i seriously think i may have some sort of depression. all i want to do is sleep and lay in my bed all day. i feel horrible, lately. i don't know. i think it's PMS. because around my period, i always feel shitty. but my moods, are crazy lately. ONE thing can just set me off, and i'm yelling or crying. something is off with me lately. plus, my hands are shaking faster than nascars. i feel like i'm an anxiety attack just waiting to BURST. i'm taking my paxil. so i really don't know what is wrong with me. well, two weeks until GRADUATION. i cannot believe it. i am ready though. i need a dress and shoes though. i don't even want that. maybe i will just wear my black dress. but, my boobs pop out like no other. i hate my boobs. i hate my calves. i hate my eyebrows. i hate my fingernails. i hate my thighs. i hate my stomach. i hate my eyes. the things i do like on my body: my feet and my lips. those are pretty sweet on me. that is what i try to concentrate on. i have to take a shower tonight. i am so tired of taking showers. even though, i NEED them. just getting up and trying to take them, takes so much out of me. i get tired so easily. humph. i wonder what is wrong with me. i am tired ALL the time. no matter how much sleep i get, it just never seems to be enough to keep me awake. i have no motivation to do anything. maybe i'm scared. maybe i think if i don't do anything, then i won't have to think about the future. but time won't stop for me. tomorrow still comes. the future is here. and i have to know, not to be afraid. it's like, i almost think if i don't do anything, then everything will stop and wait for me until i am ready. i just need to: do all my work, keep my room clean, do dishes. and relax. please.

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