• 'so reckless, so thoughtless, but i could care less' so i'm pretty sure my cat just farted on me. sweet. nothing better than a cat with gas right on my lap. it is thursday today and since i have nothing better to do until my bestest friend gets here, i'll go through what has been going on. (1) my mom is still sick beyond belief since sunday. she cannot handle going to work so she has doctor boyfriend write her a note. and i am trying to take care of her best i can. and found out that she is lying to everyone. i get to cover up for those lies. (2) i need to finish my rental application asap. my dad is getting pissed because the rental person keeps calling him. LADY! hello, i am a senior in high school. i have better things to do with my time than fill out your ridiculous forms. (3) trying to understand previous best friend. she called me, wrote me a note, ims me. she thinks i'm amazing and that we can be friends again, because i am more than that. honestly, i cannot promise her anything. i feel like i have changed so much this year. i speak what is on my mind more. i am not more than what she thinks. i am not anything. i cannot give her all of my time. my time is up. ugh. (4) boy who leads me on, lead me on. again. i guess anyone can promise someone anything in the heat of moment. and that is exactly what he did. he promised me something so he could get something. and i fell for it. i thought he actually cared about me. i wanted him to be able to care about me. i wanted to be different than other girls. but i'm no better. (5) so last night, i'm sitting in my room with renee talking and there is a golden cross just glowing on my wall. i turned off all lights and it was still there. it's just there. it's HUGE. it freaked me out so much. so i have no idea what it is suppose to be or mean, but i don't even want to think about it anymore. ugh. sick. (6) I watched across the universe again. best movie ever. i love it. it makes me feel awesome. it's just a movie where you can just let everything flow. it doesn't have to make some sort of sense. you just feel it. best kind of movies. (7) so i want to see iron man today. i wonder if anyone else does. i'll just take a shower and call up some people and see if they want to, it'd be sweet. i need some sweet action in my life right now. (8) so it is saturday. and i slept in until one. how depressing. because i have nothing better to do. i suppose i should savor it and just relax. but, ugh. i really suck at relaxing. i am always fidgeting and i know that bothers some people. so i'm pretty sure that is all that is happening, because i cannot imagine anything else happening. so, shit. i suppose it's time to take a shower.

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