• off to a decent start so far. Marketing is the best class ever. I just got back a test i got 95% on without studying. Soooo great. And now i get to just chill on the net for the rest f class. Wahoo! All my friends are being so sweet to me. They keep telling me I'm a good enough person already and that I have nothing to prove to him. I know they have a point, I don't have to like do a total turnabout or anything, but I'm still going to try. It's not just for him anymore. I think I owe it to myself to see just what I'm worth Apparently he and H talked last night on AIM. I thought that was kind of weird. He never goes online. Maybe he wanted to talk to me?Hmmm. But anyway, she said she asked me y he broke up with me over the phone with his friends like that. He told her it was only because he just needed to do it right then. Like he couldn't stand to wait till tomorrow. That makes sense I guess. i know what it's like to have uncontrollable urges. There's times where I just need to write or hear a song or call a friend...I can sort of put myself in his shoes on that one. But also said the reason we broke up was because we're too different. I'm not following that logic all too well. I mean, obviously theres the differences on the surface. But doesn't he feel how explosive it is when we're together? Doesn't he get that same sense of flying, of anything happening, of champagne super novas that i do? I'm not sure, and that scares me. I don't want to be the only crazy one. I think maybe he just told H that because of the way i act when i'm with her. How i sort of switch into best friend mode instead of actual person. Although he certainly has his flaws, he is true to himself at all times. Always stubborn, always unflinching, brutally honest. I do give him props for that. I'm still trying to figure out who the real me is. But once i get there, i think he'll see that we're really good together. That I am capable of being genuine all the time, not just with him. And then maybe he'll fight less. Once he sees how much I've done for us. And then we'll live happily ever after oh god. even i'm not that naive

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