Another crisis moment, i hate being gay i hate being shy i hate myself. i don't understand how i can't be myself completely with any one friend because any aspect of me will be hated i can't help but be an idiot at these talking things, meeting people i wish i could, i so wish i could i don't want to live alone but i can't help it i can't be anything other than self-reliant but that means that i can't function with another and i'll never be fufilled or happy