• I had an amazing substitute teacher in art today. He's been subbing for the past few days, but I was bashful as hell to talk to him. So Mar did, and then we started this discussion about how the art world is such a mess. Then Mar left the conversation and we started talking about what kind of art he liked doing. I asked him about painting, and then we started talking about artists, and then I ended up showing him my first abstract painting. He liked it. Then he gave me a bunch of tips, which were amazing. He really inspired me. I came home and painted. [I should be telling this to someone, I was excited to, but I think I fucked that up.] I feel really guilty, I kind of, not really, sort of, blew someone off. Now they're away, and have been for the past two hours. Fuck. I haven't slept well for the past 3 nights, maybe four..I don't know. Time is an illusion, unless you ask Aristotle. Smoke on that shit. I hate this. When I'm down or whatever I'm really sarcastic and joke-like. Which is not me at all. Does anyone actually keep up with my depressing journal? If so, why? There's a user on here who has been posting a novel, chapter by chapter. That's how Dickson did it. At first, at least. Did you know that? Anyways, I emailed him and told him what I thought, he emailed me back today. I told him I was a writer too, he said I should put some of my work on sm. I might. I don't know. I'm fucking tired. 9 more minutes, and then I give up, and I'll just have to leave Mr. Away a message. Man, I feel like shit. I don't know, I had pretty good day I guess. I think I have serious paranoia problems. lol. That's not funny. I guess. I don't know. Do I know anything? -well yeah. -lots of things. -example? -a shit load of useless knowledge -that explains nothing. -fuck off. Ah, I just love my mind. Gah. I don't know what to do anymore. Quote of the Day: ~"Don't join the book burners. Don't think you're going to conceal faults by concealing evidence that they ever existed. Don't be afraid to go in your library and read every book... "~ --Dwight D. Eisenhower

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