I feel ignored and neglected, and it's exactly what I deserve..But I'm not over it, not even close. The only thing keeping me here is this job, which really is a last ditch effort to repay everyone and to show my appreciation. I still find it a huge coincidence that I got employed only a few days before I found out about my friend's death. From the greatest high to the greatest low, this is truly a chaotic world that we live in. Forget all the rules you know, karma exists and free will is ignorance. "Lest we forget" - ANZAC day 2008