• Missing's on my lap (: i do love him. i strummed out Northern Downpour for Spo it's playing now (: today was a GOOD day. me + Adam finished what we started Sunday night.. Ducklington car park after dark. CLASSY but tbh it was awesome. (i was in Burford all day, that kind of boredom makes you kinky.. tho actually it was really cool 'cause me and Ems were in this park on some 2-dimensional roundabout talking to crows high on toffee bonbons v sign-ing the clouds laughing to the absolute extreme.. TRIPPY but DAMN FUN) so we spent all yesterday trying to finish up.. but it went wrong. i had to leave, like always, for tae kwon-do ( for once i actually did myself proud, Mr Croiter took the warm-up and that means INTENSE PHYSICAL EXERTION but i did it all C: ) and it was all gravy UNTIL OUR RETURN.. Mum stopped at Sainsbury's to top up her phone or something similar and she came back and got in the car and waited for this guy to go past BUT THE FUCKING ASSHOLE OF A BASTARD RAN OVER A DUCK and if any of you dare laugh... it was horrible. to the extreme. its neck hadnt snapped properly so it wasnt dead, its head was just twisted the wrong way and it was flapping around helplessly and there was blood pouring from its head and its little mate was just watching and i just watched and i ran to try and save it but i saw it completely and i couldnt move, i screamed, i felt sick to the stomach it was awful.. Mum put it in a bush. i saw some chavs from my year looking a bit 'lol wtf' i wonder if they recognised me, i wonder if they were laughing at that weirdo ginger kid on our year in some martial arts uniform crying over a duck? Spo cried too. we got home and Mum let me back out i just felt sick Adam looked after me i thought i was gonna be sick, and i was terrified.. they all know if i see someone throw up, i have a panic attack (lol Coleman's party) .. but if i throw up myself.. i've no idea what i'd do.. i've always stopped myself before.. i think i'd die. i said i'd die. it couldnt physically kill me, but the fear.. would be unbearable.. Adam got cold so i walked him home. Tiff and Chris came with us. i love those two. their 'our song' is Nine In The Afternoon, and that makes them amazing. i asked Adam about our 'our song', and he said Half Light. i always thought of Half Light as our 'our song', but i never thought he did.. it made me happy (: Chris would not shut up about Saw. that man makes me laugh he told me he would paint a heart on my toilet and put a key in my bath then tie me to an office chair and put my head in some massive fuck-ass trap then i'd find a tape telling me to castrate Adam and there'd be a porcelain doll and i was laughing my head off and shitting myself at the same time xD then he said to me and Adam: "psychological trick: next time you have sex, you will think of my face. IT WORKS" then i was at Adam's a while.. but we couldnt finish what we'd started the day before. i mean, i kept thinking off mashed ducks and Saw and CHRIS'S FACE and it was major turn-off. and anyway Adam was upset. it was all my stupid fault.. i scared him. i've always been a fucking pussy, it's who i am. i couldnt get over this tree the other day.. it was embarrassing. i cant even throw up without bricking it. so i was going on about having a panic attack and overdoing my emetophobia and saying i'd die.. i wasnt even going to throw up. i just wanted attention and to be entertaining. i just wanted to be interesting.. i've got to learn to SHUT THE FUCK UP. i can control my emetophobia i've got to stop being such a weak, pathetic pussy. 'cause that was the lowest i've ever seen Adam, and it was all. my. fault.. but today was insanely BETTER. as i said to Geo; 'good things come in threes'. take that as literally as you will. i was well proud of myself.. lol. i kicked major ass in tae kwon-do this evening, 'cause i was just thinking "after that, i can do ANYTHING :D" METAPOD!! my GOD that was funny. me + Adam were playing Pokemon at some point, (yeah we are that cool) and he caught a Metapod and its only moves were Harden, Tackle and String Shot.. AND MY GOD WE'RE DIRTY CHILDREN XD XD XD and then he was taking the piss and said the Metapod was the same colour as my zit :( :( yeah i had a zit but its gone now! we went to Whippy's after we finished (Kirsty was there too, legend kid) and he gave me this metal tool thing that gets rid of zits. AND IT WORKED i mean i'd been trying to pick that thing off all day, but this weapon of sorts did it in half a second i was WOW yay. then we were sat in the office talking to peeps on msn.. Whippy was logged in as Kirsty and getting her into shit xD and i was sat on Adam, and it was just like that fateful Sunday (: (: (: good times that got better and better.. (:

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