• Okay here are my updates. Still no boyfriend, don't have my license, still "just friends" with the guy that broke my heart (we talk every day), being stalked by a weird boob obsessed junior, madly in love with the guy that broke my heart, not going to prom, going to after prom, slowly dying from sadness... Now that I've updated everyone I'm gonna tell a story. I really don't like my geometry teacher. He annoys the hell out of me. When he talks, I tune him out and use the "ipod" in my head to 'listen" to music. It's mostly Paramore, Flyleaf, Meg and Dia, and Ferras. (Yes, I know. Extremely random choices). Then when I do listen to him (rarely), I picture him tripping in front of the class and his foot ending up in his eye. I really don't like him. I guess he broke his nose yesterday. When I heard that, I couldn't stop laughing. ;) My friend, F. is dating a senior. He's like robbing the cradle. He's 18, she's 15! Ew! He's not even cute. And he treats her like shit. I really don't like him. Actually, none of my friends like him. He broke her heart 2 weeks ago, and now they're making out in the hallway. It's totally unfair. C broke my heart a little more than a month ago, and we're still "just friends". C wants to kill the boob obsessed guy. Here's why: J (boob guy) carried me through the gym a few days ago. Then (the same day), put me on the wrestling mats and told me to have sex with him. I told C. That made him angry (but he doesn't like me except in a "friend" way...BULLSHIT). Next class period with J; he carries me to the mats after class again and lays ON TOP of me. Holy shit, I freaked out! I immediately told C and he was not a happy camper. That made me feel good. He cares about me, no one cares about me. I love that he cares about me. C wants me to get J to text him so he (C) can kick his ass tomorrow. Oh, C might have an STD. God, why is everything so screwed up? C and I were talking about having sex and now this comes up. His ex called him and told him that she was positive, and then she started blaming him. He got tested a few weeks ago. This might sound really stupid and really weird, but I still want to have sex with him. It's probably not my best idea. Losing my virginity to the guy that wants to be "just friends". But I really trust him. Yeah, he broke my heart, but he cares about me.... Now there are 2 things that are keeping me from being "with" him. 1. He might have an STD. 2. F and I made a deal that we would both "contain our hormones" (her words, not mine) until college,and then we can get with whatever guys we want. Here's the problem with that deal: I really want to be with C. He said he would have sex with me. I NEVER thought any guy would say that to me.......... WOW Okay, I'm now emotionally drained. I'll write later Song: "No Air" by Jordin Sparks feat. Chris Brown

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