• Please humanity, stop giving me signs to give up on you, and instead give me something to believe in. To see something someone said, and think to myself 'wow, they have __.' [insert, wit, intellect, compassion, etc] Instead I am littered by statements that have little substance. People trying to be witty, trying to cut others down, while simultaneously making fools of themselves. [yes, something sparked this thought] Example. [these are comments from a cover of modest mouse that I really enjoy] *Person 1* (1 week ago) Show Hide bukowski clearly said "dont try" Why would you instult him like that!??!? *person 2* (1 week ago) Show Hide Try putting your l's in the right place sometime. It's fun. For real. Person 1 was rude in the first place, but person 2 made a fool of himself by telling him to use l's correctly, when Person 1 had actually messed up the t... I'm sorry for such a weak example, but I'm not going to type out conversations I've had with people lately. Not only would that take too long, but they wouldn't be the original context, thus ridding itself of the moment. I gave up on even speaking today. I'm not an extremely talkative person anyways, but today I just cut it out altogether. I kept getting the 'what's wrong?'s and the 'your awfully quiet's. These statements were coming from the people that usually pour shit out of their mouths instead of actual words. I counted how many times Ali complained to me, and also how many times she initiated conversation with a complaint. Total complaints: 38 Initiations: 9 I have 4 classes with her not counting lunch. I think those numbers speak for themselves. There are so many people like that. It's not even the complaining, it's the way they complain. It's not like they are seeking advice, or merely venting. They are whining. Especially with Ali, I mean, she has a pretty great life. Her mom is a bitch, but apart from that she is spoiled rotten by her 'daddy'[yes, she seriously still calls her father daddy...is that weird to anyone else?] Today she was complaining that she didn't get an A on a paper because she forgot her name. [it was an essay we had to do in world history] I was angry with my grade as well, but I didn't sit there and bitch about it. Forgetting her name was her own fault, that's the first thing your suppose to do, we've been told that since 1st grade. For my paper I got marked down 7 for bad handwriting. Which put me one point away from an A. It's not that I care about making straight A's because I don't. It's that I put a lot of thought into that paper, and I really honestly tried. Which I rarely do in most classes. I told mrs. p I needed to type it, that I'd write out my rough draft and then type it so she would know I didn't c/p. She refused, I told her she wouldn't be able to read it, I knew she wouldn't. She told me to write neater. So I wrote as neat as possible. It's my fault my sister got my mom's handwriting and I got my father's? sorry. At first I figured that was just her main criticism, which was fine as long as I fucked something else up. So I asked, 'is this all that was wrong, was anything irrelevant?' she said something like, 'no, it was all relevant, I just couldn't read it.' It was only out of 75 so getting marked down 7 points dropped me a bit. I guess I was mostly angry because I got dropped a whole letter grade for bad penmanship, it's not like I can just change my writing, if I could I would. [I apologize for the venting] So I'm sitting there with a lower grade then what I deserve because my handwriting is shit, and Ali is complaining she didn't get her precious A because she forgot her name. It was her own fault. Get over it. Maybe I just let people get to me, I don't know. It just seems like the more I try to ignore people complaining the more they do it. Someone actually complained for me today. yeah.. It was in world history, they looked at my paper, and starting voicing how unjust it was. They hadn't read the paper, they just looked at what she wrote. Because I don't speak or bitch constantly like you do, does not under any circumstance mean you need to do it for me. [you: not the reader | you: the moron in my w/h class] I hope this all lightens up soon. [I apologize for all my pessimistic entries lately. Then again, I'm sure there is someone out there who is just giddy reading this, because this a sort of drama, a personal drama so to say, and people seem to love that.] Quote of the Day: ~"The fear of death is the most unjustified of all fears, for there's no risk of accident for someone who's dead."~ --Albert Einstein

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