• I broke someone's heart. Just because of the way I am. I push everyone away constantly. And I hold grudges forever. And now someone is breaking my heart. Again. Why do I let him do this to me? He comes back into my life inconsistenly. He tells me how much he thinks about me, how much he cares, how he might love me, but when it all comes down to it, he doesn't amount for anything. He won't follow through with anything he says. Now I know why I decided not to talk to him anymore. That was the right choice. Piece of crap he is. I'm leaving here in a while. In a couple months actually. By this time next year, everything is going to change. I'm going to be in a new state and all my friends in a different town. Who knows what next year will bring? I don't why I overanalyze so much. I want to control everything so much. I want to know t he future holds for me and all my friends. I've lost so many friends, there must be something wrong with me, but my best, longest friend ever reassures me that it's not my fault, it's theirs. It's spring break right now. And it's not even spring. I see snow. I see slush. I see dark skies. And some sun. Some spring break. I have yet to do anything. I'm so boring. I need to shower. I need to do so much. I hope I save these random journals that I do at random times, because they actually do mean a little bit to me. I think I'm just going to type stuff out on here. Maybe it will make me feel better. Not like anyone reads my profile anyway. They don't care. Well, I'm off to finish my laundry.

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