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  Just don't be surprised when the wheels are falling off I'm reading Go Ask Alice now, and it's pretty much one of my favorite books now. It's scary how much I relate to this girl. I'm unsure of what her name is. I'm thinking it's actually Alice? But I don't know. It's really good! Well, it's been more than a year since I've moved here. I remember the exact date and all. And how it happened. The day when I moved....was horrible. I dreaded moving. I remembered crying when she told me. It's sounds pretty lame for me to cry, since it's ONLY change right? But fuck that, I get emotional too. I moved on November 30th....MY BIRTHDAY. It was by far the worst birthday I've ever had. I was in 8th grade I think? And yeah, it's been a year and three months. I still haven't made any friends. I was supposed to go to a school closer by to my new home for my first year of high school, but some things got fucked up, in my favor, and fortunately I'm currently going to a High School that I was supposed to go too...before I found out I was supposed to move that is. I hate this. Making new friends in High School is so fucking difficult. I'm even going to compare it to Rocket Science. And no offense to people when I say this, but the school I'm going to have to transfer to is full of ghetto mexicans I'm sorry, but seriously. I'll have no friends. They'll all just stare at me. I want to run away, go to a place where I can feel happy. Without all of this new school drama, I think I'd be a really happy person. I really do think so. I've never stuck to writing in a Diary/Journal, I'm glad that I actually write this journal everyday. I'm glad that I followed through and still am writing in this. It makes me happy knowing that I kept my promise. I wanna do things in which I can't tell people about, because it embarrasses me. I think I'm gonna continue reading this book. I really want to meet this "Alice" girl. But wait, before I go I want to tell you about my day. It was boring, but this week went by REALLY quickly. I'm glad. I hope the next week will also. Kyle is a great boy. I love his hugs. Stunner dressed up as a bear today....because it was Safari/animal day. It was cute. He still wore those sunglasses though.... I'm gonna edit this because I don't feel like adding a new entry, which tells you that I reread my entries, a lot. I was walking to the starbucks near my school the other day, since my mom picks me up there away from all the busy parents trying to get out of the school's parking lot, and it was weird because passing the yield area where a car turns instead of stopping at the light, I remembered thinking "I wonder if there's anyone behind me" I didn't actually turn to look, but then once I stopped and waited for the signal to turn to the walking man, and turn to see Stunner was three feet to my right. My heart started beating really fast, I don't have a reason why. I don't even know him. What the fucks wrong with me? It seemed like forever just standing there. I really wanted to say something to him but I didn't. The annoying beeping sound of the crosswalk's signal to go started and we walked the same direction. once again we stopped and he looked at me, and examined me for a while. I didn't know what else to do other than doing what I currently was doing, which was texting. I glanced at him to see that he was still looking my way and I just looked back down at my phone. Once again the beeping sound began and I noticed from 2 minutes ago that he was in a hurry because he was walking really fast, so he sped off leaving me a nice view of his ASS. It was odd....I liked the feeling of only me and him standing there. Us two, even though there were many many cars around us, it felt nice. I would like for something like that to happen again, only this time hoping he'd say something to me, even if he only asked me for the time, I'd be happy with that. That's it... GOOD BYE I'm still trying to do anything I can to prevent this from happening
  

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