So yeah. My last entry was kinda angry. Thats because I did know everything and I was just really confused. So one of my best friends *R* talked to Ben last nite, and he said that he just thinks of Love as a sacred word, and hes never really been around it so he doesn't want to like use it or sumthing. idk. But he told *R* that he's sure he likes me as much as I like him. yay?. i guess its yay. But when TJ was talking to him, and Ben asked TJ how i was doing, i just wanted TJ to say confused because i didnt want him to worry, cuz i knew he wud. But *R* didnt know that, so she told him. and he said that he wasnt going to explode or anything and that he still wanted to be together. yay? So i didnt talk to him that much last nite, except for when he was explaining what he was thinking. His status on gtalk was like "I'll be here" which bothered me a little. IT was like tempting me to talk to him, which i wasnt rly in the mood to do. I didn't ignore him again, tho, which is good. but neither of us started a convo. He said he wanted to give me space. yay? And I still want to stay together, so i guess theres no break up in the near future =]. so thats it. just a new song i LOVE: 7 days of Lonely- I Nine "Tell me how I'm gonna make it your the one I can't forget It's like I'm running in slow motion in a nightmare that never ends When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in God I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely. My heart is speeding up and slowing down to know I know it's over, it's over And can you die of heartbreak to die for love lost young I pray to find it again, oh again"