• Well then...this is my first entry from my phone. Its currently 12 in the morning and I don't really feel tired yet. I'm gonna cut the crap and start being real. I'm going to show how I really feel I want to cry. I want to hurt the people around me. I hate being who I am. I'm not happy with myself. Things probably won't get better. And stop fucking stealing things from me you filthy skanks. I've had it with you. Go cry to your 'biffle' cause I really do not give a fuck about you anymore. Cause from now on I really don't want to hear about your little sob stories. Stop telling me things that you know I don't want to hear. I want to meet a boy that's not a jerk and is down to earth. I secretly have an upcoming obsession with Alex Gaskarth, even though I know my bffl wants him to be her husband. I don't think I'm pretty.... at all. A better word would be ugly. I'm currently tearing up. I still have that one weakness even though I tell people I don't care. I can't really say what that weakness is because it hurts that much. I haven't cried in a while. Maybe this is why I'm all emotional. I hate expressing my feelings to people so that's why I have this journal. My supposed best friend lives 6 hours away from me and we've never met.... I really wished she lived here....she's the only person worth talking to. But I swear one day we will meet. I haven't talked to this girl who I swear is my twin in 5 months I think? She's not literally my twin but we just have so much in common. She said she needed a break from the computer and she hasn't returned since. Its actually been like 7 months but she talked to me 5 months ago because she missed me? And its lame because she wasn't the same person I knew before. Its sad when people change :[ The only person I like talking to, my bffl, only goes on the computer on the weekends now because of school, and I can barely talk to her. Its a shame :[ I miss summer, even though I love winter, since summer is the only time I get to rest. School sucks. its been 20 minutes and I still don't like being who I am, but I feel a lot better since I got that all out in the open. So anyway, I really don't know what to say anymore. I don't know how I'm going to finish highschool without completely having my self esteem destroyed. There's nothing to do... And its completely quiet. :[ Maybe its best if I just lie down and think about things, or clear my mind. Hahaha like that's possible. FUCK

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