so lets see these past few days have SUCKED MAJORLY except that i got to play Dr Phil aka Dr. flynnke13 for my friend. i must admit, besides the circumstances, it was very fun. altho im rly glad i could help out. she told me what had happened and i felt so bad. so being the peer mediator that i am, i stepped in and saved the day =] so yesterday. my mom comes home from food shopping, so i say "hi" and i go up to my room. 5 fucking minutes later, she throws open my door screaming "u make my life so miserable! my life is hell right now and i dont need anymore shit from u! so clean up ur fucking room or *T* isnt sleeping over on saturday!.!!!" and a whole bunch of other shit that i dont feel liek talking about. i mean, i dont even liek come out of my room, let alone make a mess, so i think it is extremly unfair that sheis taking all of her anger and resentment out on me. when i didnt even do anything (for once). so then shes yelling "if you dont show me respect, im taking away your computer and your fone and ur gonna sit in ur room all alone for all of feb. vacation!" WTF! i didnt even do anything! i said HI. is that a sin or sumthing????????? and its not liek she shows me any respect so y the hell shud i show her respect? i mean, do onto others as you want them to do onto u. so mom, if u treat me like shit, im gonna treat you liek shit. i know ur life is tuff right now, so im staying out of the way, but do not, yell at me for your own problems. i want nothing to do with them. i have enuff going on in my life right now with out you to add to it. so then this morning, i come downstairs and shes flipping out. "did u see those strawberries that were cut up yesterday? those were for u, u son of a bitch! i didnt cut them up for my own good, and i had to eat them. ur the only one that eats strawberries so u shud have eaten them". me-"ok, sorry. i didnt knwo they were for me. if u cut sumthing up for sum1, tell them its for them, instead of just leaving it on the counter." her " dont talk to me liek that u bitch! i was jsut thinking of you! you should have eaten them!" me"ok, im sorry i said." her"sorry's not good enough" and at this point i was putting the silverware away and had about 5 knives in my hand. it took all of my willpower not to either stab her or throw them at her. and let me tell u. i have good aim. i wud go move in with my dad except that hes never home, and the last time i threatened to, my mom called him and told him and he said i couldnt. so im fucking stuck in the hell hole. im the only one that gets blamed for shit. my sister gets to sit on her fat ass, and do nothing. shes as rude as hell. she reaches across u at the table and takes ur food, and as shes chewing, asks if she can have it. then she fucking burps and doesnt say anything. and if ur in the middle of talking she starts talking and complaining abotu how nobody listens to her. liek, idefk. and then i was so stressed out that i ate a ton. and now i feel gross and i feel liek i need to go lose 10 pounds and i was doing so good. i was losing weight, and stuff, and i prolly gained it all back today. so thts about it i live in a hell hole ********************************* some times she wishes she was never born