• a lot going on right now... today was the german restaurant. yesterday was Mock... so mad about that. our team lost by one point. but we should have won. we looked better than them. this one girl- their only female lawyer, for god's sake!- was wearing glorified pajama pants, a tanktop, and a hollister sweatshirt. a PINK hollister sweatshirt. you could see her underwear and bra straps- not pretty. we were all in suits, even those of us in the audience. we presented better than they did. they all used notes- not one of us did. we had everything memorized. when objected to, they'd get flustered for minutes at a time cuz they forgot the next question- we recovered so much better. and when she commented on both teams' performance, she was so pro-plaintiff and anti-defense- anti-us. it was like she decided who was gonna win before she came in. and the best part was she wasn't paying any attention to the trial at all. there will be judge-bashings... she clearly didn't know shit. anyway... today was the german restaurant, which was awesome. i'm exhausted now though.. ohwell. today did confirm a couple of things though, in my mind at least. some good, some bad. one, Nathan really really cares about me. :) not that i ever doubted that in the first place. he's so OCD about making sure i'm happy. it's so cute. if i act even the slightest bit mad, like even if i'm only like fake-mad, he apologizes profusely and like hugs me to make sure i'm not actually mad at him. like today, me, him, chloe, and *A* were having an "argument" about something. i kept saying one thing over and over again and he had his arm out to stop me from talking. i was all like "omg!" and walked away. i wasn't even actually mad, but he like ran after me and stood in front of me. i tried to go around him and he just hugged me... twas like the cutest thing he's ever done. such a sweetie :) he's lucky he's so goddamn adorable. so that's the good thing. the bad thing... i'm pretty sure *A* is trying to get him back. she was madly flirting with him today. like ttly unashamedly. she was acting sorta like they were still together, even though they're long over and now i'm going out with him. maybe it's just her, cuz we know she can't help flirting with everyone... but SM asked me today if i was still going out with him and i was like yeah, der! but RG misheard and was like, oh, i thought they were having problems... and i was like huh? who? and she said *A* and Nathan. and i was like oh... they broke up a long time ago. now i'm going out with him. so i'm not the only one who thought she was acting like that... with *A*, i'm never sure anymore if i love her or can't stand her. i wanna talk to *A* and Nathan about it, but i mean, what do i say? i don't want to sound like i'm accusing her, even though i guess i kind of am. and i don't want to sound like i doubt him, cuz i could never do that. i just don't want to lose him. i don't want to lose him. i love him.

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