• I like writing journal entries on this site. I don't normally "blog" but when I was at school I would write in my journal almost every night. My roommate and I had "journal parties." But this feels nicer than writing in a journal because there's a possibility that some completely random person is reading it, and that this random person might actually care. Maybe I'm just crazy. Maybe nobody is even going to read this. Or even worse, maybe somebody is reading this and honestly doesn't give a shit. I wish I had something really interesting and profound to say. But all I can think of is my hicktown drama that clouds my life. My friend's abusive boyfriend, my friend's cheating boyfriend, my friend who thinks her boyfriend is cheating on her with me, and of course that boy I just can't get out of my head even though I have a boyfriend. I barely even know him. I remember the night I first saw him. I was going to a party with my ex and he was just sitting there on the couch, drinking a beer. I immediately wished I was single. He was, and still is, absolutely stunning. I saw him again the next day at the same place, which was on New Years Eve. However, I don't remember any of this. Several people recalled it to me the next day. I was completely trashed. I flirted with him shamelessly, right in front of my boyfriend. He didn't want to start any drama, so he left. Several months later he got in a car accident, driving drunk, and was in a coma. Luckily, he woke up. The first time I saw him after that was this summer. He was very friendly, very flirty, and I couldn't stop thinking about him. A few weeks later, I was at a party with him, and we hooked up. At first I was disgusted with myself because I had told myself not too hook up with him. Now, I look back on the memory fondly. =) It was the best hook up I've ever had. I've never felt so strongly for a guy before..even my current boyfriend. His name is always on the tip of my tongue, even though I don't dare talk about him in front of anyone. Has anyone else ever had this feeling?

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