• and i dont know why... but im not crazy im just a little unwell i know, right now you cant tell but stay a while, baby, then you'll see a different side of me how true... stay long enough and you'll see i'm the exact opposite of what i seem. im not as bubbly as you think i am, guys. it's been a long time since i last posted... so i'll try to keep this brief. went to camp in NH, which actually took us to ME; went whitewater rafting; fell out of the raft. thats right. i frickin fell out of the raft. it was AWESOME. went back to ME, w/ family; 'twas fun. now im here, wishing i was somewhere else. almost. im going to a day camp now. it has a digital photo effects program that im taking. super awesome.. id post pics if i could. but i dont know how :( hottie count for today is up to 2... much better record than the lat weeks. i averaged 3 in the last 2 wks. now 2 in a day.. feeling lucky? maybs? so yeah. my dissociation is getting better, i think.. which only means its not as frequent. good? bad? i dunno... i kinda like floating. i dont have to put up w/ evry1 else, just me. remember 'depression to the point of clarity'? thats really my dissociation. lovely, isnt it? and i LIKE it. scary? maybs. not to me. comfortable. familiar. something that actually feels like home. ehhh well... happier things. his name is Patrick. and his name is Nathan. hotties from camp. Patrick looks like a Pat. Nathan doesnt look like a Nate. watevs. i sound like SUCH a girly girl. a ditzy blond girly girl. worse than *A*- she's a blond girlygirl but SHE'S not ditzy. and i'm not blond. haha. well anyway i have to go do dishes. dad's not feeling well and mom is out, so it falls to me... *sigh* maybs i'll bback 2morro. maybs not. peace, love, and pineapples, Zaraiya :) quote of the week: "this is Ultimate Adventure, not Ultimate Frickin' Shopping!!"

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