• you can find out firsthand what it's like to be me that's how i felt all day... yeah. felt like total crap. another day wasted going to school and doing MCAS... wahoo. luvly fun, that is. sooo yeah... and then i came home and finished Forever in Blue. the last Traveling Pants book. sooo good... felt so inspired and uplifted. yay! so i had a complete turnaround- i made a major decision here. im gonna ask CC to the dance on the 14th. when the right moment comes, i'll know. and i'll do it. and the funny thing is, i wont really care if he says yes or no. the satisfaction will be in actually getting up the courage to ask him and letting him know i like him. (and then i'll be totally fuckin gorgeous at the dance so if he says no he'll regret it haha :) )so yeah... wish me luck! o yeah- im officially 14. u can see how mich of a big deal that is at my house by the way i almost forgot about it. my B-day was yesterday :) and CC remembered :) he asked me a question and was like oh, happy birthday, by the way, and i was like o thanx! and nikita was all like OH! Happy Birthday! (yes, she definiteley used caps) and i was happy ...and we got new seats in math today. i now sit next to *him*. i cant stand *him* anymore. yuck. long story; dont ask; DONT wanna talk about it. and CC no longer sits at all near me. :( tear tear. my chances are now closer to zilch than ever before... but the funny thing is, as the BarraKuda announced it, CC said *something* to me... i didnt understand what it was. but did i hear... regret? in his voice? hmmm... regret at what, though? not being able to talk w/ ali and me or just regret that we had to change seats at all? i really dont know.... gimme a day or two on this. i. think. i'm. in. love. maybs. dunno wat 'love' is really suposed to mean; but ill find out sooner or later. damn, im really desperate for a boyfriend... o well. theres only 1 guy i'll take as a bf right now and i've heard he already has a gf and he'd nvr like me like that neway...:( sooo yeah... ali's party was funner than sneha's... sry u guyz couldnt go, chlo and tay... some fave quotes: "must we have deeply philosophical conversations over cake and ice cream? it just feels WRONG!" ~me "you missed all the boobfun" ~Hana "pinkies don't swear..." ~Hannah (followed by a middle-finger-swear substituted for a pinky-swear) "the book of doom and destruction" ~Hannah again ..can't remember any more off the top of my head, sry. sooo much fun tho... and the best part is that Hana's bf Dean thinks it was a coed party. when it was really all girls. so she's gonna tell him we stayed up late playing "really fun games" and talking about "sketchy stuff"... lol. luv her soo much. tay and chlo, u guyz wood have luved her too. must go now, have social studies homework to do and mosquitos to fend off... haha, mosquitos. but that's a story for another entry. remind me to tell that one and the one about the truck and the premonition... KittyKat_13@verizon.net peace luv and pineapples

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