• haha how retarded is that? i'm taking German at school yet here i am speakin spanish... go figure. life is not so sucky anymore! yay! but... i know myself too well. gotta enjoy this while i can, b/c it wont be long till i fall apart again. ah well. so... wats new... hmmm.. 2day was really boring. me + Ali played tennis w/ Dan and Brad in gym. it was really funny. i thinks maybs (dont kill me chlo) maybs little teeny tiny crushy voice in the back of my head.... scaring myself. so. i have *achoo* cat hair *ack* all over my *pfft* face and *bleck* keyboard. my kitty's being a sweetie tho. hes so cute. nvmd, he just bit me. anyhoo, u can tell i'm bored when i'm talking about my freakin CAT... =^..^= Transformations of etc. etc. went well... but no one got the reference. no one even asked :( twas so sad... ha. i luv screwing around on the comp when im supposed to be doing homework. this is so much more rewarding than stuff i'll forget in 2 days. I"M LEAVIN MY MARK ON HUMANITY! THIS IS SO MUCH COOLER THAN STUFF I HATE! just had to get that out. ha, my only mark is freakin u all out. o well... wat else. not much, too be honest. I'm pretty boring when i'm not depressed or hyper. :( oh yeah- I HATE THE BARRAKUDA! she is absoulutely the WORST teacher i've ever had. i swear. such a bitch. the only good thing is that CC sits in the row next to me and 1 seat up in math so if BarraKuda says something really ridiculous or incredibly stupid we glance @ each other and start laughing... and we talk alot instead of working... jeezus, i really am a slacker! haha! luv it. ...CC also has the locker next to mine *sigh* jk, jk. not THAT obsessed. anyway, today, i asked him wat books we needed to bring home. a short convo ensues and he leaves... but he said bye! i dunno if he was just bein polite or if like, well, u no, but i dont really wanna get my hopes up. cuz i know hope is the last thing i have in this situation. :( but it's not the first time he's done that... one day i went back to school after hours (ugh, i no) to get a textbook. he was there for peer mediators (he is one. otherwise he wouldnt be there. i swear, i don't think he could ever get into a fight with someone). so i started chatting w/ him and a couple other kids (ND and TG) and when the convo kinda lulled i was like, 'well i gotta go cya' and he said bye. no one else seemed to notice that i was goin. i guess i should be glad that i have his friendship, sorta, but i want more, to be honest.i wanna like ask him to the last dance but he's way too popular for me. he has the most gorgeous eyes... ah fuck that. i've been on the sidelines for so long, waiting longer can't possibly kill me. i dont think i could take being rejected by him. *sigh...* well hope ur life is less borin than mine...:)

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