• I don't think my friends know too much about me at this point, and who knows if i know about them anymore. Today i talked to this girl with my friend. i dont talk to her a lot but she's really nice. she read us a few songs and poems she wrote, and they're really good. my friend wants to start a band. she originally didnt plan to have me in it but somehow she changed her mind without even telling me and now "her and i" are gonna create a band in the next year or two. im thinking awesome, this can be my motivation to finally pick up my guitar and learn to play. Also, my friend sings and i think i would make for an okay background singer at least, but i havent told her that yet. i think this could actually be my chance to tell her i write lyrics so we can use them if we ever do form a band (unlikely we will, actually). but while we were there she decides she's gonna let this girl in on that we wanna make a band and that she wants her to write the songs for the band. the girl doesnt really react, but all the same. ARGH! when will i ever be honest with her???!!! i just found out today she writes songs when she's bored. i thought about telling her at the time, but im not ready. im just not ready to tell someone, im not ready to let my friends know. mainly because they'll wanna read it, and then i'll have to explain what it's about, and i dont want to. Also now that i think about it, she said she writes when she's bored. i dont write when i'm bored, i write whenever i want to and more importantly whenever i need to. writing lets me get everything of my chest before i burst from not saying anything. Plus the friend i've been writing about will want to make it into a song, which bugs the HELL OUT OF ME!!! she says that every time someone writes something good. Her: That should be a song! Me: Yea Her: Im gonna make that into a song. Me: Dont. u shouldnt. When she wonders why she shouldnt im sittin there thinkin: Dumbass. maybe they wanna make it a song THEMSELVES. it is so annoying when she does that. Thats why i dont wanna tell her and i might not wanna be in a band with her. im afraid she'll take over it or something. I showed her a song lyric i had made as a joke once. She's then like: "This is good. I'm gonna make it a song and sing it at my next singing class with my teacher." She then proceeded to sing some of the lyrics aloud in the most hideous tune and melody i think i've ever heard. that's why i dont want her seeing my lyrics. i have tunes and melodies and everything set up in my mind the way i want the song to be heard, and she'll take it and twist it and butcher it without even asking me. Im gonna keep my lyrics to myself a bit longer, maybe start my own band with people i meet instead of people i know. Maybe they wont ask what the lyrics mean or try to change the way i imagine my songs. who knows, maybe i'll actually want to tell that person the lyric's meaning. Until then, my silence remains... Dang i wrote a long entry!!! "I'm walking down the line that divides me somewhere in my mind. On the border line Of the edge and where i walk alone." I Love Green Day

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