• I want to take the risk...i really do...but for the first time...i seem to want control...which is weird because im the type that pushes away control...and i dont have control over my mind anymore...IDK im so close to just running up to him and kissing him...i want to feel him against me...our hearts beating at the same furious passionate speed...i want to look him in his beautiful fiery brown eyes...listen to his voice...deep, calming and somewhat surealistic... I dont know....he tells me its okay...that i wont hurt him...and a part of me is like...okay...then lets do it...but the other part is saying ....No..be smart about this...but love isnt smart at all...in fact its the stoopidest, most dangerous thing a person could do...but i love loving him....i know he would never hurt me...i know that loving him doesnt have a price...but what about me? hes the thing i cherish most and i would do anything for his life to be pain free...but what about the pain i could cause?? Its a risk...like alot of things....and i am a risk taker...when it comes to things that could harm me...i would drink until i blacked out...take half a bottle of pills just to see what being numb felt like(not what i expected...cuz i still couldnt get him off my mind...i just couldnt move(sorry i didnt tell you that Oz...i didnt want to scare you)) but when it comes to the possibility of hurting him...my heart feels like cement in my chest...i started crying at the snow for that reason ...i felt sooooo stoopid and weak...then i cried when i got home too...IDK whats gotten into me Oscar, if your reading this...i love you so much...i dont know what to do....please help me(i dont know how you could...so that doesnt really make any sense) This hurts soooo much and i miss you...IDK what to do...what to say...my mind is a fucking battlefield i just dont understand how something so good could hurt so much

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