• Mark, I think I may have fallen for you. Not fallen all the way, thankfully, but far enough to make your engagement and your leaving hurt terribly. You're what I want, you're what I've been looking for most of my life. Before I realized that I was attracted to you, my criterion for guys was totally undeveloped. But a hundred facets of your personality I've realized I want in a guy. Your sense of humor, how amazingly musical you are, your taste in basically everything. I don't just have romantic feelings for you - I respect you above anyone I'm not personally related to. Is there even the slightest possibility of "us?" If you hadn't been engaged, could I have had you? Am I too young, too structured for you? Sometimes I think you feel something for me, even just a faint attraction, but I know you. Your fiancee means so much to you, and I know she loves you just as much. Is it possible you rushed into it? That God actually meant for the two of us to be together, and that somehow it'll still happen? The fact that you're leaving youth band means that I won't see you anymore, which hurts terribly. Couldn't you have stayed? Wouldn't you have stayed if we were meant to be together? Something about you is magnetic. Does she feel that way as well? Your personality, your soul call to me, and I'm deeply afraid that you're the only one who will ever hold that special sway over me. God has a plan through all of this, but more than anything I want to know that you're following it, and you won't be screwing us both over by getting married. You're the first guy that I've thought seriously that I could give up my dreams for - you don't need to be a doctor, a dentist, or a lawyer. I'd give up that Honda S2000, the nice house, whatever diamonds I'd ever thought about, just so that I could have you. That's a huge deal. I don't know where my California film dreams and your dreams of missionary or outreach work would mesh, but by God I'd make it happen. For you. And I guess I'm being melodramatic, but I don't honestly think feelings this intense can be written off the way most people say they should be. I'm not denying that it is currently impossible, but I want it. I want you.

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